mellicious: pink manicure (me - age 4)
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It's not good, as I expected. As a matter of fact, I correctly predicted more or less exactly what the doctor said. The weird thing about brain cancer is, you can see the effects plain as day. Art said she was starting to have trouble distinguishing letters and numbers when they were playing bingo. And her motor skills on her right side were getting worse. So to me that said that the tumor was mostly likely growing again, and I was right. And while the chemo she had after Thanksgiving seemed to help a little, it obviously did not have any really dramatic positive effects, and we already knew that that was pretty much the last-ditch effort as it was. So that means that we are out of options as far as any real treatment is concerned, and it's time for hospice. I thought they might keep her at MDA - I'm pretty sure they do have a hospice wing there - but they brought her back to The Pointe, which is where she has been, and that's probably best for all of us. Particularly Art, who goes to see her every day, and doesn't need the strain of the daily drive up to the Medical Center. The Pointe is only a couple of miles from the house. (Mom's, I mean, which is where Art is still staying.) And apparently what they do is they get the hospice people to come in and do their thing there. I don't think it's like with other kinds of cancer, though, where there's going to be a lot of drugs involved, because having your brain eaten away from inside is apparently not a painful process, at least not so far. And I have no idea how long they expect her to live, even now. Her oncologist has never been one to throw out numbers like that anyway, and I bet Art didn't get any out of him today - or at least if he did, he forgot to tell me. The hospice people will probably have a good idea, once they spend some time with her.

I cried some, but mostly I'm pretty calm. Dragging it out for months on end would be much worse than this. Up until a couple of months ago she was still fighting, and I was proud of her for fighting, but now I think she is done with that and ready to go.

Date: 2007-01-19 06:12 am (UTC)
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*hugs* I am so sorry.

Date: 2007-01-19 06:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
My thoughts will be with you, Mel. thanks for keeping us updated on her condition.

Date: 2007-01-19 08:26 am (UTC)
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Ooooh Mel. :( I really wish there'd been better results. I can't imagine having to cope with the inevitable when it involves this nasty disease. You've shown through your writings, to me anyway, that you've been very strong yourself through this whole ordeal and your own personal scare. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Date: 2007-01-19 02:25 pm (UTC)
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Thanks to all of you for the good wishes. I don't know if I'm all that strong, really - I'm just coping as best I can. My mother's the one who's really been amazing - I've never seen her cry about this, or even complain very much. If she cried she did it where nobody could see.

Date: 2007-01-19 12:22 pm (UTC)
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I'm so sorry. I hope that her last days, whenever they come, are as peaceful for her and for all of you as possible.

Date: 2007-01-19 01:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Mel, I am so sorry. I'll be thinking good thoughts for all of you.

Date: 2007-01-19 05:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Mel, I'm so sorry. I'm thinking of you and your family.

Date: 2007-01-19 07:42 pm (UTC)
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Oh, Mel. I'm so sorry. I'm glad your mom is coping so well. You try and rest when you can, and I'll be thinking good thoughts for all of you as well.

Date: 2007-01-20 02:35 am (UTC)
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Me, I'm so sorry. I'm glad to hear your Mum is taking this in stride, that's good for her. I'll be thinking of you all.

Date: 2007-01-20 02:58 am (UTC)
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I'm so sorry for your bad news. Add me to the 'good thoughts being thunk' list.

Date: 2007-01-20 04:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
i'm really sorry to hear this, mel. take care.

Date: 2007-01-20 08:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I am thinking of you and your family in my part of the world, too, Mel. So sad and sorry that the news was not better.

Date: 2007-01-27 09:12 pm (UTC)
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I'm sorry to hear this news, Mel. I send good thoughts to you and your family. julia


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