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I've been in the strangest mood today. Actually I've been in the strangest mood all week. I've been bored and restless and whiny, and I don't know why. I would say I'm PMSing except that I've never been prone to that at all. If I'm bitchy, I'm bitchy all the time. Maybe it's the heat. Maybe it's the Ambien I've been taking all week. Maybe it's all of the above.

I've whined at Columbine, I've whined at the board, I've whined at Rob. And all three have done a pretty good job of temporarily snapping me out of it, actually. I still really have no idea what's going on, though. I think I'm going to quit taking the Ambien (which I intended to do anyway; I can't take it forever) and see if that helps. Which means I probably won't sleep at all well tonight, but that can't be helped. I thought about looking up the side effects of it to see what it says, but those lists usually include everything in the world and make you crazy. My mother says Ambien gave her nightmares. If it gives me nightmares, though, I sleep right through them and don't remember them.

I really just got this idea about the Ambien a while ago; it hadn't even occurred to me til then. That's really the simplest, easiest-to-fix solution, so I hope it turns out to be the right one. (Sex also helped a lot, but you can't do that all the time, can you? Well, you can try, but you still have to go to work eventually!)