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I bought an e-book of Pillars of the Earth, because my paperback copy is old & battered. I'm pretty sure I didn't pay for it in the first place -- as I recall, my cousin's ex-wife gave it to me, years ago when they were still married. The new copy was 99 cents or maybe $1.99, I'm not sure, but I was thinking, well, I haven't re-read that in a while, and I'd rather read an e-book than the paperback. (And it's one less book on the bookshelves, which is an ongoing project of mine.) I think I had this vague sense at the time - before I actually read the book, I mean - that Pillars of the Earth was a religious book of some sort, and I wondered if that wasn't why my cousin's wife gave it to me, because this branch of the extended family knows perfectly well that I, well, don't go to church. (That's the polite Texas way of putting it.)
 
I know there's three or four of these books, right? (or maybe more) but I've only read the first one. If I re-read it and I enjoy it, I'll see about reading more of them. - But that's not really what I wanted to write about. What interested me was that when I opened the e-book, there was a preface. It's not new, it was written in 1999 - but clearly it was written some time after the book was published. (The book was published in '89, so maybe it was a 10th-anniversary thing?).


Anyway, I did eventually read this book, as I imagine you've guessed by now, and I think maybe I even read it twice, but I may not have read it since. I thought about discarding it a couple of times, and I thought, no, I want to read that again at some point. (Thus the e-book.) But obviously I did like it. It was mostly about very religious characters, because, well, it's about the building of a cathedral. But I'm interested in architecture - and this is why I was interested in the preface, because it says that Mr Follett is not religious either but he is interested in cathedral architecture (well, obviously, since he wrote multiple books about it), and furthermore he was brought up very religious, in some group that sounds vaguely Quaker-ish and didn't believe in decoration, which does sort of explain why cathedral architecture interested him so much, later on - cathedrals in general having a sort of more-is-better approach to decoration, I mean. And the preface goes on and explains how he went on to write the book, and that its popularity sort of grew by word of mouth even though it wasn't a best-seller in most places - and hey, word-of-mouth did get me to read it, even if I didn't pay for a copy until lately.

Mostly I was amused at how that story fit in with my own. Baptist is not exactly non-mainstream, not around here, anyway, but I grew up in a church with a very plain-vanilla building and I remember being stunned by just the Episcopalian cathedral in Houston. (I was in choir and we went to sing at the church service there.) And I've always been drawn to really elaborate church architecture.
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I have sort of a fraught relationship with the holidays, nowadays. I guess a lot of people do. I used to love Christmas. I was brought up in what would now be called an evangelical family - Baptists, and in Texas (Southern Baptist, which didn't especially mean anything to me back then). So I was taught that the story of Jesus' birth was absolutely factual, but I don't know that I really internalized it that way. (I remember that when I was little, I thought that when we sang "Jesus Loves Me" and it said "the Bible tells me so" that the Bible was, like, a fairy or something. I just think little kids don't really take in all that stuff, do they? I thought that maybe Jesus was real and maybe fairies might be, too!)

Anyway, the thing was, nobody made any effort to separate out the religious and the non-religious aspects of Christmas. But we always went to my grandparents' house for Christmas, and we didn't go to church on Christmas Eve, that I recall, or do anything specifically religious other than somebody saying a prayer before dinner. (Which was something we always did for formal meals, so that wasn't anything out of the ordinary, either.)

Even after I decided as a teenager that I didn't actually believe all that stuff (meaning religion in general, not just Santa Claus and fairies!), it really didn't change the way I thought about Christmas a whole lot. I no longer thought that the stories were literally true, if I ever did, but I still enjoyed Christmas. Actually I think I'm kind of a natural skeptic - I started poking holes in the Santa Claus story earlier than a lot of kids do, and I suspect I felt the same way about religion generally, even if it took me a kind of a long time to admit it to myself.

I guess it also made a difference to me, in a way, that I was in choir (school choir and church choir both, for a long time) and honestly, when it comes to Christmas music, religious Christmas music tends to be superior to the secular stuff. They may not play much of it on iHeart radio, but when you're singing in four-part harmony, Christmas carols are the best.

I used to think that I wished I could be a believer, because it would make life easier. I don't really think that any more, but I do wish we could do Christmas the way we used to, just celebrate it in our own irreligious way without worrying about it. I don't much think that's possible any more, though. The blasted War on Christmas business has made that impossible, at least for me.

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